I am a reluctant social net-worker. I have a blog [you already knew that], a twitter account, and a Facebook page, but I don’t always like to use them. Sometimes its a time issue and sometimes its just me being lazy.
Anyway, that isn’t even the point…
This morning I was thinking through everything I had to do today and I started to Tweet: “busy, busy, busy day.”
Before I hit send, for some reason, I asked myself the question: “Why am I Tweeting this?”
There were lots of things I could have written in that 140 character space.
“It’s a beautiful morning!”
“Today is shaping up to be a good one!”
“Happy Day After St. Patrick’s day!”
You get the point…there were lots of options.
But my initial impulse was to Twitter about my busyness.
[I do not assume that anyone/everyone who Twitters about being busy is struggling with this same issue…just sharing my journey.]
Then I asked myself another question: “Why do you want everyone to know how busy you are?”
At this point I am assuming that I need to pay attention to what I’m asking, or more accurately what I am being asked. I am always astounded when God speaks to us in the everyday, mundane, ordinary moments of our lives.
Why do I need to tell everyone how busy I am? Do I need to feel important? Do I need to justify my pay check? Do I need for other people who are busier than I am to think that I am just as busy as they are?
Is it because I am insecure? Do I feel not good enough? Is my opinion of myself based on what others think of me?
Sometimes, yes. I admit there is a part of me that wants to feel important, busy, and needed. There is part of me that seeks validation from others, that assigns my worth based on what they think of me and what I do.
But this morning, as I was hitting the backspace key on that Tweet, I felt a momentary freedom. Freedom from the desire to impress or prove or posture. Freedom to simply be me. Nothing more, nothing less.
Today I have been reminded that my true identity, worth, and value come from God, and not the various places I seek after them.
What about you?
What is God teaching you right now?